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and so you lay there trying to forget all of the tears and blood and sadness the pain and muck and filth that streams down your face and chest covering you completely and so you lay there covered in your mistakes in your doubts and fears and regrets and tears stream down your cheeks in a flood that never ends and so you lay there when a voice whispers in your ear "what if they knew?" "what would they think?" and you are broken once more the one thing you need to say is the one thing that you cant because of that little voice in your ear and so you lay there with the hole in your chest where the monster now eats and dwells each day it claws

All around me I see others happiness But I have none of my own Sadness burning in my heart And pain inside my chest A void of numbness Is all that's there I'm left here alone In this world of pointlessness Losing feeling of who I used to be Unable to smile Unable to laugh Unable to feel the warmth of others Only the cold chill of nothing

Why is it that I feel so alone When I have you to hold me close Why is it that my heart aches When it's full of love for you I want nothing more than to be with you To see you every day And to give you all the love I have But this distance This distance makes it hard But I know I'll be with you one day So I keep going Even though I cry Even though I hurt If I get to be with you it'll all be ok But until then it hurts so much That I can't ever see you Or hold you in my arms Or kiss you goodnight My heart belongs to you So please understand That even though I'm hurting Even though I'm crying Even though this pain is almost too much No matter wh

What is so wrong with me That makes you hate me the way you do What is it that I do To deserve your disgust Why is there so much pain Every time I see your face And so much anger Every time you see mine What have I done For it to have gotten here

My world grows darker and darker As more of my friends walk away What did I do wrong To make you hate me like this I'm sorry it got this far I'm sorry for being who I am And now you leave me in tears Alone and afraid Of losing anyone else

Sometimes it feels like all I am Is the sum of my mistakes A pile of faults and flaws Being crush under my regrets There is no one that can help me Because I'm fighting against myself A raging battle inside of me And it's tearing me apart

The sadness of loss The happiness of accomplishment Bittersweet emotions Swirling within me Hope for the future Regret of the past Smiles or tears Sometimes both I'm not sure how to feel Either happy or sad Or something else The bittersweet feeling Encompasses my heart Leaving me With a smile on my face And tears in my eyes

I wonder what it'd be like A day without me No texts or calls No communication at all Will anyone wonder Where I am Or just go about their lives Without a care for me

You're always on my mind Like a song stuck in my head Your words are sweet and kind Like a love song Flowing through my ears Touching my heart Making me smile You brighten up each day Just by saying hi I can't even say How much I love you Cause a word that big Doesn't exist So every time I say I love you Just know it means so much more Know that I'm always thinking about you Even though we are so far Love is pretty strong So I'm sure we'll make it through I just hope I'll be able to spend my life Loving only you